I know my God well enough to know that all this craziness is for a reason!
I can't believe my 2nd year blog-aversary (February 1st) completely slipped my mind! Especially because starting it took an act of God. No seriously, he placed the entire idea of starting this blog in my heart. The name, topics to write about, the photoshoot concept (which my sweet husband shot in our living room), when to launch and even receptive and supportive readers to follow it.
That moment was such a pinnacle moment in faith for me because the idea of committing to do something consistently a couple times a month, without pay, made me anxious! So many thoughts about: What if I ran out of topics to write about? Who's going to really want to read it? What if they don't like what I have to say? God simply calmed those fears and said, rely on me for the topics and whoever needs it will read it. That revelation gave me the peace I needed to calm my fears and move forward.
On February 1st, 2019, Memoirs of Happy Black Girl was born and you guys have been so supportive ever since. Even in this brief hiatus I have taken for school, every time I get notifications that someone is accessing the blog I am first surprised and then all warm inside.
Since beginning the blog, I have taken on a new and even larger challenge, which was to quit my job and become a full time Graduate student! I know people do it all the time but let me tell you how never in a million years would I have ever thought I would make that decision. One because I already have a Graduate degree, in the field I was previously working in for 6 years and two, I have worked since I was 14, so not earning a check is foreign territory for me!
I made this decision because I knew the dream career path I really wanted could not be achieved without clinical experience and licensing, more importantly, I could not have done it without the guidance and faith in the one greater than myself. Making the decision was just the first step, but staying in has been a WHOLE other thing! The obscene number of obstacles this program poses (not even academically) is ridiculous! I'm not even gonna go down the rabbit hole and disturb my peace about it, but let's just say I made all A's last semester and got cheated out of one of them, cheated like I had a 92 and she changed the grading scale as grades were going in, so I got all A's and a B, and I now have that same professor for two classes this semester. And that is the least of my concerns at the moment and I will leave that there!
The point is, I know my God well enough to know that all this craziness is for a reason! I honestly don't even know why I thought being in alignment with purpose was going to be a breeze. The mere insanity of it all just further confirms for me that I made the right decision because there is something on the other side the devil doesn't want me to access, which is the whole and only point in this post. To encourage you and MYSELF to stay the course! If there is somewhere that you know God has led you and now non-sensical things are starting come your way, just keep going because you're going the right way.
I got into the program with Grace and Ease. I complete the assignments with Grace and Ease (you know the parts that matter) but the additional elements that serve as only distractors try to steal my joy daily. That has been the crux of this journey, learning to keep and maintain my peace despite the chaos going on around me.
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